When I was with them…
When I was with them they complimented me, but now, they ignore even the conspicuous changes.
When I was with them, they loved to hang out with me, but now, they prefer to do something else alone.
when I was with them, using their phones came secondary to our bonding, but now, it is the main tool of distraction.
When I was with them they promised me heaven and earth, but now, I’m left with hell only.
When I was with them, my voice was melodious, but now, I’m just like an empty barrel with the loudest “noise”.
When I was with them, I was greeted with lovely messages every morning, but now, I’m left with lots of ignored chats and messages plus no calling.
When I was with them, I was the center of their world, but now, I’m told to face reality.
When I was with them I didn’t have to panic or explain anything, but now, I’m forced to explain my existence.
When I was with them, my mental illness was a priority, but now, it’s an object of mockery.
When I was with them, I relied heavily on their success to thrive. But now, I’m left with nothing to hold onto. (Big mistake)
When I was with them, my decisions were impeccable, but now, they elicit arguments and foolish connotations forthwith.
When I was with them holidays meant everything to spend together, but now, it’s an excuse to stay farther away.
When I was with them, every difficulty didn’t feel as such, but now, the easy things have become difficult to enjoy.
When I was with them, I could easily be vulnerable, but now, I’m acting strongly in my deepest weak state.
When I was with them, I accept every gesture and language including gifting. But now, it’s a ploy to get me to remember to “behave”.
When I was with them I was defended each time there was a verbal or physical attack. But now, they attack me themselves.
When I was with them I was assured no word or secrets of ours would get to other’s ears. But now, they’re more than willing to share with whoever asks.
When I was with them, they were my number one fan, but now, they don’t even remember what I love to do.
When I was with them, they paid attention to the little things that matter, but now, it’s all about the “big” things not minding the disconnection.
When I was with them, emotions and emotional availability mattered a lot, but now I am being too emotional for them.
When I was with them my way of doing things was appealing, but now I’m just the girl who doesn’t want to “change”.
When I was with them, they were hands-on with things but now they’re hands-free.
Right now, I’m working on being the girl I used to be with them.
Instead of the girl, they liked me to be.
Because I realize that was the most authentic version of who I am. Just with the wrong people.
Thanks for reading.
Comet N. is a writer that aims to reach the soul. She would use the simple things of life to conjure words that will surely leave you thinking twice as though they were big in the first place.
In essence, she’s an advocate of highlighting small things that could snowball into bigger unbearable things and trying to help people recognize and curb them while at it. Please follow my account or subscribe to get messages each time I post. Thanks
